Life's A Gray Shadow.

New website same name.

2010-09-11T15:55:00.001-04:00

I haven't posed on here in a long time. I only started writing again at the beginning of September. It's the same url name, but just a different network server.

Check it out.

Contradict. Past Thoughts.

2008-12-31T12:05:00.006-05:00

Dedication In Thoughts. <---(CLICK)

It's time to take note.
From a smile to a sneer.
I hope you see my fear with a tear.
I'm the broken soul that you never really understood.
You took for granted our friendship that I knew.
Realize what you lost, cause I'll forget you.
I will never forget this final dissension.
It was brought up by you.
This friendship we had felt like arouse.
To feel that our friendship was forced.
It was only fate that died in vain.
Now I wont feel so insane.
Always hiding the fact that you never want to hear the truth.
Letting the "All About Me" attitude control you.
Never feeling like it was a "We" friendship.
My life will change now. For the better.
You can take your problems right as you threw them at me.
Let me take mine and hide them in seclusion.
While I turn away I'll clinch my fist and pump it high.
To know that this is THE END.

A dedication In Thoughts.

2008-10-26T17:00:00.002-04:00

( To Leigh & Aaron )

Through the many difficult points in my life.
I think of all the understanding that you have given me.
You helped me to stand, to stay strong.
Always by my side.
Thank you for letting me feel like I belong.
Even when I kept taring myself down.
Through every rough patch you where still there.
To ease the pain and suffering.
Thank you for never letting me feel ALONE.
To let me feel wanted in this world.
Shredding my walls that kept me inside.
Understanding it all and still stand by my side.
Listening to all my complaints.
Told me that you would never let me do anything to myself.
You are my family outside my family.
I care for you both as you do each other.
My life will never be the same without you.
You gave me the happiest moments in the darkest time.
I'll take that in my heart and never forget.
Even now you still let me feel like I belong.
You are the truest friends I have.
You never let me fade away.
I am nothing without you.

Moment of Weakness.

2008-04-11T02:15:00.019-04:00

I'll always be here for you.
Through everything that I do.
Forever, always and true.
I live every moment of the day.
From these many miles away.
I Love You, How much more can I say.
With every heartbeat I take.
Your arms are my saving grace.
When I see that smile upon your face.
You are the angel in my eye.
When I look into the sky.
I feel your heart fly by.
Through the bad and the good.
You always understood.
I knew that you would.
I see your Fears.
I Wipe your tears.
I Love You.
Goodnight.
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Stay Beautiful - The Last Goodnight

The Last Goodnight 'Stay Beautiful'

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My Strangers.

2008-04-05T17:35:00.000-04:00

Falling apart
Pull it together
Too late, it's here
I'm broken down
Way down
To where it is hidden
Hidden even to myself
Shrouded in smiles
Hopelessly hoping
Fake laughter leaps from my mouth
Can they tell?
Happy enough to fool them
All of them
And by them
I mean only myself
Perhaps this will go away
If I can just keep going
I am OK
Stop staring at my charades
Let me breath
Help me breath
I can do this, never mind
Ignore this
It will be gone tomorrow
Wake up six times
Twelve eyes see
Whisper and concern
Just a bad day
See through my lies
My scars
My tears
My flying off the handle
That I have drunk from
You are not OK
Says who?
You don't know a thing
I am a stranger
But my stangers still see
Strangers are coming closer
I can almost see them clearly
Wait, are they going to hurt me?
No
They see me hurt
Not going anywhere
Leave me alone
Go. Run Away
Return to problems
That never seem to lose me
So, I am lost
Scared, sad and alone
In this same place
That is everywhere
That is nowhere
But different now
Now I have you
To be lost with
To be found with
So you are not leaving me in here
Taking me with
By forcing me out
Why strangers?
I am a cause
A lost one
I am broken
I can do this alone
No I can't
I don't have to this time
I thank you for not listening
I thank you for staying
I thank you for my life
I thank you for being you
I thank you for being my family
I thank you for being my strangers.

Knife to the Heart... or Gun to the Head...

2008-04-05T14:45:00.002-04:00

The night comes to show something different.

Just stand in the darkness with bloody hands.
Why is it so easy to find pain and the fragileness of love hard to keep?
Fall down to your knees with the blood on your face not knowing what to expect next.
Look up toward the sky in reach of a better place.
Lay on the street motionless just to die in your sorrows.
Pain is nothing to you anymore 'cause all you've experienced is all the pain.
You fight so hard that you stay lost in yourself.
The way out is never easy, but you still try.
Still you try, but you still go down to the world of hell.

Just try to think of a way out. Only one way you know what to do.
Reach in to your pockets to find a knife in one hand and a gun in the other.
What shall you do now?
Laying on the ground and think

Knife to the Heart... or Gun to the Head...